The NOW

Moments……..they are what make up my life. I do not live life in days or weeks, but in individual moments of time. I have been noticing how fast time seems to slip by and each moment has become precious to me. It seems that as if it was just yesterday that Jeremiah asked me to be his wife and I was dreaming of the future and then I blinked and here I am a mother of three children, my oldest is six……..how ? Time is a funny thing, when in it it seems to take forever at times, such as two deployments, in those times, it was forever and the end was not in sight, and now he is out of the marines and on to other things. And when I am up at night cleaning up peed in beds and puked on floors. Those never seem to fly, but they also pass. And then there are my kids, people tell me to treasure this time, because before I know it they will be out of the house and with their own families. And sure I used to agree, but still I was living for then and when and after, but it is finally hitting home as I look at my youngest and realize she really is not a baby anymore and my oldest who is fast approaching young girlhood. What ever happened, will I be able to remember all these precious times with my children? I am afraid I won’t if I am always living for the future. This is my time, this is the moment to live for, these are the days of joy and growth and this is what will make my future worth living for. These are the moments with my children and I aim to live in them to the fullest.